I had something planned for today but then Facebook happened.. so I’m sorry there will be no mom-approved Monday today! Instead I need to share a story! This morning Facebook notified me that I had memories with my husband and someone else and another person. Normally these memories make me laugh to see how immature I was 8+ years ago. Today, that came to a screeching halt! Today I did not laugh, it was actually quite sad to read this pregnancy memory from 7 years ago today!
With both Ava and Zoe, I was considered a high risk pregnancy due to a short cervix. I touched on the subject back in August last year but you can click the link above to read all about that experience. This second pregnancy was alot easier than the 1st because I knew what to expect. I knew the advantages, I knew the fear, I knew how much support I need, and I knew how to get prepared.
Until today, I didn’t really realize just how sad, mad and scared I was until Facebook brought up my Status posts from 7 years ago. A flood of emotions came over me as I read the anger in my status’s.
” September 14, 2008 at 10:33am · is wondering when she can go home.. stupid hospital!”
It’s lonely is this place without you.”
It broke my heart to see my younger self in such pain especially knowing that what I was experiencing was just the beginning of it all. I’d go on to have one more scare and then came the day she was born, which I guess I blocked out parts of it, because there was a moment she wasn’t breathing and again were faced with more fear but she was born perfectly. All 10 fingers and all 10 toes.
I then went on to suffer from Post Partum Depression, which is a whole other set of fears. Today, I just want to hug my younger self and ask her to not be so mad, to not be so scared. I want to tell her that it will all be ok! The memories of this past week have been intense and I’m taking the time to reflect on where I am now! I am so incredibly lucky to now have 2 beautiful little girls a loving husband and the most amazing friends and if you’re reading this.. that probably means you.
So I ask you today, reflect on your friends, and maybe just reach out and let them know that you’re there and you care. Sometimes in the hustle of jobs, children, school and our own lives, we get caught up and forget that sometimes a simply phone call, email, or text message to say hello can bring so much joy to someone’s day!
You, my dear friend, are amazing! Thank you for being you and for reading along! If you ever need me, you know where I am. I got you!