November 13, 2014 began like any other day, I was 39 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I felt a bit uncomfortable but I had been having Braxton Hicks for several days before so it didn’t feel any different. We went to look at computers for Bruce while Ava was in school, who knew that this would be the last time that we’d go out as parents of 1 and the last time we’d have lunch together without having a little tyke along for the ride!
We ate lunch, it was a little spicy, and exactly what my pregnant self needed. The pains got a little bit more intense but not any quicker, I brushed it off. The day progressed on as normal, I walked to Ava’s school to get her, we carried on our day with nothing being an obvious indicator that in a few short hours I’d be having a baby!
I went to bed, and was SOUND asleep! At 1:40 a.m. I shot out of bed like my pants were on fire, I was in labour! Bruce was playing video games, I told him that he should go to sleep for a bit cause labour was starting and his mom would be here in the morning and we would then head to the hospital. Bruce went to sleep as I paced around the living room, I texted people to let them know it had all began! I could wait until 8am right?
By 2:30 a.m. I was waking Bruce up and getting Ava ready to go, I couldn’t handle it anymore! I needed to go! We loaded the car with a very groggy Ava who was scared to death of her mama who had 0 patience and was moaning like crazy. I’d stop and hunch over and breathe and then keep going!
We got to the hospital filled out the papers and were heading off to get some relief. I just remember the nurse saying I might be too late for an epidural, I insisted quite loudly that I was not too late! I had my laughing gas, I wanted my EPIDURAL; which came shortly thereafter!
Things progressed as naturally as Miss Zoe would allow. My Doctor arrived in the room at 8:03 am, we did a final check and it was go time. We began pushing at 8:08 in the morning, and Zoe Dawn Shearer was born November 14, 2014 at 8:16 a.m at 6lbs 11oz and 50 cm long!
Her cry was so gentle and small which matched her petite little body but her presence in our hearts was instantly so big! My heart became so full and I knew that life as we knew it had changed in the most loving and kind ways imaginable. I could picture the sister cuddles and hysterical laughter that would eventual come to be from Ava and Zoe. I pictured my days being consumed with mama cuddles and soft kisses. I could see her daddy falling in love yet again! I could picture his hands as he rubbed her small back or the way he’d hold her so close. I fell deeper in love!
As I put my 11 month old to bed one final time, I hugged her just a little bit longer, I held her sweet hands, and smelled her sweet smell, I brushed the hair from her forehead away from her eyes and I loved every moment! She is the most affectionate, funny, gentle little soul. Her smile.. oh that smile is so infectious and her laughter is genuine. She is my perfect distraction!
Miss Zoe.. One year ago today you came into our lives, today our lives forever changed! Our hearts much fuller, our laughter heartier and our days much brighter! You’ve changed the dynamic of our small family of 3, we are now complete at 4.
Dear Zoe.. I am forever grateful for the love you have shown us that we are capable of. You have taught your big sister how to play innocently again, how to love unconditionally, and how to love. You taught your daddy to enjoy small moments, you’ve brought his childish laughter back, you showed him how to be even MORE nurturing and me… oh sweet girl, how you have changed me, I cannot even begin to count the ways both you and your sister have changed my life, Ava my little bear and Zoe my bug! So different and both soo amazing!
Happy 1st birthday Zo-bug! We couldn’t love and adore you anymore!